This week passed unsatisfactorily for me. I believe that the one of the worst, which perhaps i attract them to allow the flow of negativity of energy , emerging from all around the relevant people and unhappy incident happening consecutively.

Starting from the last week, PTUM - things gone so well, that i have managed to complete the tuts. by Sat & Sun, and by Mon, I head for the PTUM opening ceremony and it was interesting, fun.

 Writing till here, i felt totally messed up. I should have started with yelling and writing foul words for the pleasure and to appease my unbearable emotions that really pushed me to the ultimate stage where there is zero curability. To make it clear and precise without any flamboyant words that crazily used, i supposed there are several points as below as to show the degree of unsatisfactory of this week and after this, i shall write another entry for to attract better promising arriving prophecy.

1. Life , as i have long listed, there are tasks for you to fulfil. Which one of them, is nevertheless the BALANCE. Achieving Balance Between the Extreme of Two Opposite Poles. This pretty shit has not really been in my mind whenever i faced any failures. You know the shit, when things really have gone so far off from the expectation of yours, shouldnt you stay calm and restart all your emotions and atmosphere in a much more better mentality, and proceed to a wider, enjoyable workplace. Then only, you can practice well. Sounds like i have used this blog as to self - console my weakness and to detect any negative emotions emerged during the past week.

Other than that, shit, I recalled one of the most powerful words from my English lecturer ( KMPP), ” people brush off others”. ” Nobody indeed, will treat you kind enough for they are only to guide, and no consolation or nice, kind advice should you ever hear from.” Shit, that is damm so true, when you feel like you are sooo bull shit-ly down, and a party who is so close to you still stand aside, hanging around with others while taking no notice of your absence. It could be that i am so selfish, that expecting .. to come for the comfort of my emotion and in order to be practising better.

Lessons learned : DONT EVER EXPECT FOR THE MOST EXPECTED TO ARRIVE AND REACH FOR THE LEAST ANTICIPATED.

2. Moving on to the second thing, the packed time hours. If you were to involve so many activities as if you are a big, busy like hell businessman, please, kindly reduce the participation in any coming activities, since you were unable to cope with , and you WANT and WANT and WANT for more freedom to do , talk, shit around and of course F XXX around. For what reason you participate so much? I got to retreat from that situation.  Kind of shit, though all activities are beneficial to me.

LESSON : IF YOU WANT FREEDOM MORE THAN EXPERIENCE, BALANCE BETWEEN THEM , HOWEVER, WHEN IT EXCEEDS EITHER SIDES, FREEDOM SHOULD COME FIRST WITH UNQUALIFIED.

3. That Thursday, after making the beautiful tanglung, shit, damm i was so tired, exhausted, in fatigue, worn out, and the BULL - SHIT is i have not prepared for my presentation - English class. I slept. Morning at 8 am, wake up to hastily find my shit laptop to read,- pendrive got no info of the topic- ( i forgotten to transfer ), i guess i must be too tired, and living a life with uncertainty that always comes before me, and i cannt really be really really decisive of anything as if in law. And after that, moving on my day tiredly, to where when i reached my room, i found no room key. Shit, i left it somewhere.

I got back and shit, i had 4 places to check out :

After all, i found the key back at the same parking lot which i parked this morning. So lucky ? or Unlucky?

It was meant that this blog had no points for people who view wont understand. Only people who are close, will.

Cheers

Yee Cs