My head is dizzy. Wonder why i should start blogging. I have promised LEE KOCK SIN to produce one, so i need to write one with my head flying here and there.

                   Friendster has turned out to be one tool of searching, hunting, and smiling the aroma of the well craved statute. I never want to give more effects in this tool anymore. I was viewing one of my friend’s blogs, one which gives straightforward, full of expression, adjectives, emotions, you feel so good reading at it, as if the truth were as what she presented, and yes, it’s so true, to all the words, perhaps exaggerated a little bit, it was nevertheless good, for me to have fun reading hers. Well, another blog, a simple guy’s blog, with many ups and a tremendous down in his loved life. Wow, a blog which conveys better message than sms, hotmail, fb, and other means. The way he writes a simple one which also gives a sense of truthfulness, sincerity in telling the stuffs he wanted to. Previously, he was a breathless monster with a fantastic look and cover. Now, he is back, a loved relationship, a good lover, a man who lives with a better understanding to the psychology of the opposite sex. 

                   Love is really wonderful. Whenever you find one, you find it hard to get detached to it. Isn’t it? I love praticising animalistic behaviorism activities. MAX, JAROD, WILL would certainly condemn me for that, but what if that animalistic behaviors suddenly gets some comfort from the love? If it is to blossom from there, i wonder it is really true? Is it? Isn’t it? It is not? I love my 1st principle of life : Acceptance. A simple word with my own definition with my own interpretation. If the answer to my question is YES, then i suppose i shall fall to it. and vice versa.

                 However, a second meeting with X, who a rich fellow, with the newly born age, a pair of massive sagging chest, which i love to hold to them, an ignorant attitude. Before composing this, i wasnt leaving my blog started without a title, instead, i was with my title before the blank page. It was then my words always revolved around as my title did. X was ignorant, i don’t understand, and hardly can i discover, if he is ignorant of arrogance or ignorant of his young age. I have lost my religion, identity to be with X. I have falsefully disguise myself, lying to X, cajoling X into the sweet dream of mine, thinking i will be the one who embrace X, in fact, the truth is, it will never be.

                   I have been an animal for quite a long time, these attributes, didnt appear strong to me, i wasn’t attracted to. I need no interpretation from people around me, especially those who think they are trying to. I leave my hatred towards those for my next paragraph for i attempt to keep my temper in low to have completed this para. My animalistic behavior has gone too far reaching, i smile like a vampire, Robert Pattinson, I feel the urge, the calling of my evil to conduct my scheme, but, my conscience trying to call me back at first, it gradually gave in for my evil mind. I understood you are humans, sometimes, discarding that characters, you are also a simple brainless animal. You think of scolding, yelling as the chinese said, the beating is the love. 

               I wouldnt want to embrace that principle, distorting it for giving too much tolerance in. When one, like me, giving in too much tolerance to tool like you, will end me in a wasted man, a man who lives without my own thoughts, religion; you may have too much prohibition, i wouldn’t attempt to cross over, but at least, i was trying to lessen, but your harsh words have hurt more than once, more than a sword. I left you in grief, loneliness and sorrowness for every of your potential, delighted night turn out be my revengeful targets.

                    Wouldn’t know why i have had turned to be that way. I need no U to decide my life, interpret my acts, as if i were 2 years old. It was not you, MAX.** Noted. i was not for you to leave a red pen ink on your impression pages towards me. I was a nothing. And nothing is secret. And therefore, i am a secret. What is that, an utter bullshit. Well. I want to say, don’t place your ruler to my behaviorism. I try to keep low, i try to save myself. And don’t figure anything as if you are someone who going to leave the mark. What i encourage is to set out your nice principles, live with them, to the utmost and dont ever cross mine.

                     You may have found life sometimes, is so boring though you have tried all ectasy pills, you have lived as if a happy lark. Random reminder, don;t ever forget when you are lonely, there is one to accompany you, treasure that, and in return, you will be rewarded. However, don’t condemn, leave or abandon your near ones, when you got another nearer one.

                     Such a boring blog i wrote. I wasn’t trying to improve mine. i know for some, it was total bullshit. ‘undeniably, i agree with your thoughts, because i have already written that in my past, old times, but now just to recall my memory. Sick. Perhaps, live with it, and get rid of it and live with it. The vicious circle, turns around and around and around.

                    Lastly, God bless you couples to live happily after. God bless you whom i hated so much to live a much abundant life. God bless you whom i love with inner strength and much profound thoughts towards life. God bless me who is writing this, a much meaningful, disciplined life. God bless all who are living with the ending moments, with appreciative attitude.

        Cheers

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